(Note: I posted this on AP Forums under the name ShinigamiKing, so don't think I'm a troll.)
I'm young, yet I don't enjoy playing video games that much.
Whether it's God of War, Uncharted, Final Fantasy, DBZ/Naruto games, NFL Street, Madden, or Angry Birds, I don't seem to truly enjoy playing video games, at least not the way others do. I like going on forums like NeoGaf and seeing discussions about the industry, or seeing collection threads of N64, PS1, and Sega Saturn consoles and games. I wish to create a console that I've already drawn and designed, along with games to. I'm a teenager (14). Yet whenever I play games, I don't get a REAL sense of enjoyment for some reason.
For instance, I finished God of War. I Might start GoW 2 soon. As I finished the game, or even played it, I enjoyed it. Same with Final Fantasy X and Final Fantasy VIII. I enjoyed them, yet I can't say I liked it a lot for some reason, even I though I enjoyed them while playing. I don't know whether or not "they feel like actual games" to me, or because they're single player games, but something bland. I played NFL street with my bro, and it was a fun, competitive experience, but something felt missing.
There's always one thing missing. Like something always feels missing either when playing, or after I finish a game. Maybe I should play more? I have some emulators that plays N64 games (like Zelda OoT, Mario 64, Mario Kart 64,), and PS1 games (Final Fantasy VIII, Chrono Cross, Madden NFL 2000, Gran Turismo, etc.), along with SNES games (Super Mario World, Final Fantasy VI, Gradius III, Chrono Trigger, etc.). The emulators work good enough. I haven't finished any of the games aside from Final Fantasy VIII. There are times where I'm struggling a lot, and I get frustrated and leave (Chrono Cross).
I don't want every game to have a super complex story with majority of the game being attacking other people. I like to have that, but not all the time. I guess what I want are games that don't feel like time wasters, but at the same time, not always having to have the goal of attacking enemies and listening to cutscenes all the time. (I play mobile games like Angry Birds, Candy Crush Saga, and other ones like Basketball Shoot. They don't necessarilly feel like time wasters, especially CCS and AB, but I don't get a sense of completeness or fullness sometimes.)
Maybe its just me watching to much previews of things and then having it feel stale when I finally get to play it (because I wasn't as rich as the rest of the kids in my class, and by the time my family had good money, we had good internet first, before getting video games. So I always saw previews and gameplay of games I wanted to buy a lot before I bough them.). For what it's worth, I do have some form of depression (I take Prozac, though I don't know if works that much or if I do need it or not.) But I don't know if that's exactly it.
Again, I like looking at the consoles, mods, game collections, I like talking about and/or learning about the industry and its flaws, etc. But when I play, it's not the same. Is it taste, or what? Should I play Nintendo consoles? Or am I the type that would enjoy games with accessories (light guns for shooting games, racing wheels for racing games, headsets, Kinect, motion control, etc.)?