"Except for this one hobby that I have never, ever felt I had to abandon: video gaming. Even though I’m far from being good at it, video gaming is the one thing that allows me to just be. I am a terribly impatient sniper. I can never remember the route I came in. I have flawed depth perception, both in games and in real life. Yet games took me in despite of all that, and with this encouragement I allowed myself to enjoy something that I know I am falling short of my possible potential.
As the failure itself tend to be the sole sign post of my activities, I view not-failing itself as a reward, rather than failing as a punishment. Part of the ‘perfectionism’ hang up attitude. Meanwhile, games reward diligence."